Quirky things about me:
- Purple is the best color ever. I love to wear purple nail polish; I have a purple phone case, purple wallet, purple kindle case. You get the picture – I really love purple!
- I have an affinity for even numbers. If I am changing the volume on the television I will turn it to an even number. Well, I’m OK with numbers divisible by 5 as well. But no prime numbers – those just give me the shivers.
- I love our little dog – he is the lap dog of all lap dogs and he loves me more than anyone else in the world. I would have never asked to have a Chihuahua but he came into our life and boy am I grateful he is here. He sits here on my lap as I write this. 🙂
I’m funny, at least I think so
I chuckle more than I laugh. I think I am funny – but often people don’t “get” my humor. I strike people as serious but more than serious, I am an introvert and have a high need for time alone. I enjoy being around people but after a while I just need some space. I love to connect with other people on meaningful topics. But don’t try to get me to do small talk. I get tired of it very quickly and will probably excuse myself to go take care of something. But if you need a listening ear, I am here.
Who inspires me?
I am inspired by people who give of themselves to help others (like Mother Teresa). I hope to make the world a better place by being kind, forgiving, and loving. The magnitude of my dreams has changed, because of limited energy, but my desires are the same. Make the world a better place than I originally found it.
I’m how old?
I am a forty-something mother of three. I am getting closer to 50 and am having cognitive dissonance about how old 50 sounds compared to how old I feel like I am. I feel like it was not that long ago that I was in college and dating. Now I have a college-aged, dating child.
Grateful to be married
My sweetheart and I have been married for almost 24 years. Our first date was a blind date where we were assigned characters. I was Sleeping Beauty and he was Prince Charming (should have been Prince Phillip, but we forgave them for the error a long time ago). 🙂 We love being together and make sure we have a date every week. We live in beautiful Utah – where there are lots of mountains and the winters can feel quite long.
We have three amazing children that keep us on our toes. Just when we think we know what we are doing with parenting, something new comes up. I love being available when the kids get home from school. They usually download quite a bit about their day at that point. How grateful I am that I am able to be around for that!
My Okie roots
I grew up in Oklahoma and lived there for the first 20 years of my life. I did many different kinds of crafts and sewing. I remember making everything from pot holders to intricate bead bracelets to sewing a suit for myself (skirt, blouse, jacket). My mom was my cheerleader all along the way. And thank goodness she was willing to pick out some of my messes, when I was sewing, or else I would have just given up. But she would take it apart, pin it for me, and tell me to try again. I try to be that same kind of patient, kind Mom to my kiddos.
I am resilient and a hard worker – I thank my parents for those attributes. They instilled in me the belief that if I work hard enough, I can accomplish anything. I used to accomplish a lot in a short time – now it takes longer but if I set my mind to something, I WILL get ‘er done!
My love of reading
At any given moment in time, I will likely be reading 1-3 books. It drives my husband crazy. He asks me how I can keep all the stories straight. I don’t really have an answer – it is just how I roll. I have always loved to read. Books have taken me to places that I could never visit in any other way. I will usually have a more serious book (maybe self-improvement) going but I will for sure have a fiction book going. Every night before I go to sleep I read, it is a must. If I try to skip it, I just don’t sleep well.
When I was in college I got an undergrad degree in sociology and then a masters degree in Organizational Behavior (which is the study of large organizations and their life cycle). The material in my master’s program was interesting but I hated working in corporate America. The politics and such were just draining to me.
Why I Blog
After our kids were all in school full-time, it seemed like a natural time for me to go back to work. But I had two big questions:
1 – What would I like to do? Back to point made in college studies – I was not really interested in doing something in my field of study. But didn’t want to make $8/hour either.
2 – What do I have the energy to do? By the time all kids were in school, I was really struggling with fatigue. So for the past 8 years, off and on, I have wrestled with how I should be spending my time. I stayed busy – helping David with his counseling business and home stuff and making a dollar stretch as far as possible. But nothing really satisfied me. I wanted to do something meaningful – something that made a difference in the lives of other people. In the midst of all of this, I had bouts with depression – feeling like I was just taking up space on this planet and not contributing in any way. I had thoughts that if I disappeared, no one would notice except for the fact that food would not be prepared, the house wouldn’t be as clean, and the laundry wouldn’t be done. I know that those are not true – but at the time they felt very true. After fighting with those thoughts for several years, I decided I wanted to move beyond them.
In 2016 I went to therapy to confront some of the big shame points in my life. I was able to identify just how much shame I had associated with my chronic illness. I had lots of beliefs that it was my fault that I have this challenge and that it somehow showed that I was not as good as other people.
My therapist asked me what I thought would happen if I would just let people know what was really going on with me. Initially the thought petrified me. But with time it sounded better – especially if my voice helped others realize that they are not alone; that others struggle too; and all of that is OK.
Chronic illness inherently isolates people. We are not able to be as social as we might prefer to be. We have to cancel going to things because of our health. The challenges are real – but I believe the support can be very real as well.
So what now?
So now that you know more about me than you may have ever wanted to know, where do we go from here? That depends on what you are interested in.
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